Anyone Can Be Your Teacher

Perhaps different people are brought into our lives to teach us a thing or two not only about life but ourselves as well... If we can let down our guards and truly listen to what others say, we can learn to become better individuals. I also realize you can learn things about yourself while helping others. It's not always easy to hear you are not perfect and you have short comings that need to be worked on. It's especially not easy when you've dealt with people from your past who only wanted to hurt and criticize you for their own good. It's hard to take off that steel of armour that has been so carefully placed around your heart. But if you really want to grow, unite with another soul, love and be loved, it is essential.

Change

I'm Not a Bench Warmer

I know myself. I know what this restless feeling means. I know what these nudges and urges are saying. I've been trying to ignore them and ward them off but they are getting impatient. I AM getting impatient. I have been in murky stagnant water for too long. It's time to move toward the crystal clear, flowing current. One can only be patient and hopeful for so long. I won't apologize for being who or how I am. I know what I want in life and I just can't sit around waiting for it to happen. I can't wait for someone else to make it happen (thus the bench warmer comment :)). I have to make things happen for me. LIFE is NOT waiting... that's for damn sure! That is why this "life in limbo" I've been living for 3 years has got to end soon. It is totally exhausting my soul. It totally feels like I'm living the life of "Ground Hog's Day". I've been praying, wishing and saying the same things over and over and over. I can't keep saying... "when this happens or when that happens"... because what if it NEVER happens? I'm tired of asking this "higher power" (that might or might not exist) for help. I can't keep ALL of my eggs in the basket of hope and faith. My life is here NOW. I have to face reality and make the right decisions for my future.

I'm trying to NOT make impulsive decisions this time. I'm trying to take "patience" or "the lack of patience" out of the equation. But rather look at choices I've made from the past, promises people have made and my present situation the rational determining factors.

As my best friend always says, "Actions speak louder than words"... It's time for ACTION!