Choices

I had a dream that I went for a run, however, I had this feeling that I was running away from someone or something. The path ended at an enormous lake in which I must swim across in order to escape whatever I was fleeing. I did not dive in head first as I am accustomed to doing because there was very thick and tangled seaweed which stretched out at least 10 feet from the shore. I could see however, that just past this seaweed the water was as calm and smooth as ice. It looked very inviting so I made the choice to continue on. I was very apprehensive to jump in for fear of not knowing what lurked among or under the seaweed. I was determined not to turn back on the path so I put my feet in very slowly. Since I still had my running shoes on, the water rapidly filled them and pulled me in very suddenly. I was becoming tangled and trapped by all of the vines and leaves. I started swimming on my back trying to remain as close to the surface as I could. Each stroke was a challenge and it felt as if I were not moving. I did not give up and with much effort and time, I finally made it to the wide open lake. I was exhausted at that point. Looking out over the lake, I could not see the other side. It was simply miles and miles of water. I began to cry and felt so alone. I didn't have the courage or strength at that point to keep swimming. I felt had no other choice but to swim back through the seaweed to the shore. As I began to make the difficult and unpleasant swim back, I woke up. I felt very disappointed that in my dream I had decided to turn back. I wish I could return to that dream and make the choice to cross the lake. It would be interesting to find out what would have happened. Maybe I would have drown! Maybe a brand new sailboat would have come and rescued me? Maybe...