Where do I draw the line?

Experience has taught me not to wait but to make things happen for my own good and happiness! But when do you know if it's a matter of impatience or your gut instinct putting up those "red flags"? I've never been good at distinguishing between the two...

The road to fulfillment is navigated by the heart. It's taken by those who are willing to explore their options, pursue their dreams, and travel with winners.

The road to fulfillment is designed to lead you where you were most meant to be.

Demolishing Anger’s Walls

"Anger, when channeled into the pursuit of change, can be a useful tool in our emotional palette. Anger is experienced by most people, some more than others. It is when anger has no outlet and morphs into resentment that it carries with it the potential to cause great turmoil. Allowing us to assign blame for the pain we are feeling, thereby easing it, resentment tends to smolder relentlessly just below the surface of our awareness, eroding our peace of mind. The target of our resentment grows ever more wicked in our minds and we rue the day we first encountered them. But resentment is merely another hue on the emotional palette and therefore within the realm of our conscious control. We can choose to let go of our resentment and to move on with our lives, no matter how painful the event that incited it. Hanging onto resentment in our hearts does not serve us in any way. Successfully divesting ourselves of resentful feelings can be difficult, however, because doing so forces us to mentally and emotionally confront the original source of anger. When we cease assigning blame, we realize that our need to hold someone or something responsible for our feelings has harmed us. We thought we were coping with our hurt when in fact we were holding onto that hurt with a vice grip. To release resentment, we must shift our attention from those we resent back toward ourselves by thinking of our own needs. Performing a short ceremony can help you quell resentful feelings by giving tangible form to your emotions. You may want to write down your feelings and then burn the paper and close your ceremony by wishing them well. When you can find compassion in your heart, you know you are on your way to healing.Free of resentment, we have much more energy and attention to devote to our personal development. We can fill the spaces it left behind with unconditional acceptance and joy. And, as a result of our subsequent freedom from resentment, blessings can once again enter our lives as the walls we built to contain our anger have been demolished. "

June 14th horoscope

Paradise

ENCOURAGEMENT

"From time to time, we all need to be encouraged. It is encouragement from those we love that gives us courage when we are afraid, hope when we are in despair, light when it appears that darkness will prevail, faith when we are consumed by doubt, joy when it seems that sorrow has overcome us, and peace when unrest holds our hearts hostage."

~Matthew Kelly


Thank you to those who encourage me daily! :)

Deep Thoughts from Sunday School

While at church this morning (bike ride out in the country), I stopped to admire the beauty of Life. It was such a beautiful morning. The sun was shining so brightly, there were a few high white clouds and the sky was a baby blue. The green corn fields and trees radiated in the sun and swayed ever so softly with the gentle breeze. As I was taking in this simple yet miraculous scene, two little gold finch (male and female) appeared from out of no where and sat upon the black wooden fence beside me. As I watched the two take flight, I was suddenly intrigued by their pattern. They took off as if they were following each other, however, one did not necessarily take the lead. They flew in and out, back and forth zig zagging yet towards the same goal (a tree). And I wondered first of all, how these two little birds came to be that they, out of all of the other thousands of birds, were together. If birds don't talk, have an address or name, how is it that they end up together and/or mate? The other thing I wondered about was how these two birds knew to fly to that one particular tree? It made me think of us and possibly all living things as spirits living in a shell on this earth. And how there are few people in this great big world that we connect with, become friends with or fall in love. Is it merely chance? Have we been together in a past life or different dimension? Are the people who are in our lives there for a reason? Are we attracted to their bodies, souls, minds or a combination of all three? And what about the little birds? How do they pick and choose which bird to fly and/or mate with?

The experience of watching these gold finch simply "being" together in their environment made me think about my current relationship with Don. I've been searching for a word which describes my (our) love and affection for each other. And it suddenly dawned on me that the word is DESERVING! I feel like we are two peas in a pod (only not currently in the same pod). ;) And I feel very fortunate to be taking flight with him.

Amen!

Thinking Out Loud

Maybe I do give up too easily when things are going rough or not my way? Maybe I shouldn't have quit on some things in my life. When do you know it's worth it or not? Do you sacrifice your personal happiness in hopes that things will get better? And for how long? I know I am not patient with certain things. As much as I love change, I do like to know that some things will be constant in my life. I would like to know that I will have the same person who loves me there in my life supporting and encouraging me to become the best version of myself. I would like to know that all of the time, love and energy which I so willing put forth in a relationship is going to be reciprocated.

If I think about time and how quickly it goes by, it's no wonder I get in such a rush to do, try or see new things. It is also not surprising why I'm in a hurry to find that special someone to share these adventures and life with. Life is short! We never know when our time is going to be up. I guess love and friendship are two of the most important things in life for me. They are ultimately what matters. Touching and effecting another person's life in a positive way for me is one of the things that truly gives me satisfaction.

This is an odd time in my life. One in which I'm faced with trusting another person again. Having faith and hope that things will work out if I remain patient. Learning to be lonely. Not giving up my dreams...

Am I happy? Content? At peace? Is love worth waiting for? Can I learn to be alone? Can I be patient? What am I doing? I'm doing the best that I can at this moment in time. I'm trying to possess all of the above virtues. Are my needs being met? More so than what they were over the past several years. A lot has changed. I have my dignity back! I feel beautiful once again (inside and out). Time will tell and help heal my bruised heart. This I know!

Reevaluating

What am I doing?

Are my needs being met?

Has anything really changed?

What am I willing to sacrifice and for how long?

What is important?

What should I do?