Thinking Out Loud

Maybe I do give up too easily when things are going rough or not my way? Maybe I shouldn't have quit on some things in my life. When do you know it's worth it or not? Do you sacrifice your personal happiness in hopes that things will get better? And for how long? I know I am not patient with certain things. As much as I love change, I do like to know that some things will be constant in my life. I would like to know that I will have the same person who loves me there in my life supporting and encouraging me to become the best version of myself. I would like to know that all of the time, love and energy which I so willing put forth in a relationship is going to be reciprocated.

If I think about time and how quickly it goes by, it's no wonder I get in such a rush to do, try or see new things. It is also not surprising why I'm in a hurry to find that special someone to share these adventures and life with. Life is short! We never know when our time is going to be up. I guess love and friendship are two of the most important things in life for me. They are ultimately what matters. Touching and effecting another person's life in a positive way for me is one of the things that truly gives me satisfaction.

This is an odd time in my life. One in which I'm faced with trusting another person again. Having faith and hope that things will work out if I remain patient. Learning to be lonely. Not giving up my dreams...

Am I happy? Content? At peace? Is love worth waiting for? Can I learn to be alone? Can I be patient? What am I doing? I'm doing the best that I can at this moment in time. I'm trying to possess all of the above virtues. Are my needs being met? More so than what they were over the past several years. A lot has changed. I have my dignity back! I feel beautiful once again (inside and out). Time will tell and help heal my bruised heart. This I know!