The "little devil"

It caught up with me again! It has been a while. I was minding my own business (maybe not being mindful) and from out of no where, it crept up on me and wouldn't leave. It caused such an overwhelming feeling of pain, fear, loneliness and sadness it almost made me puke! Was there a thought or vision which triggered it? A memory? Or just some left over residue which needed to be expelled?

My old way of thinking almost blocked it. The wall almost came up. I almost allowed myself to ignore it and stuff it away and let it fester. But I'm learning from past mistakes and know that will do me more harm in the future. It's best to sit and visit with this little devil. Usually it brings me some kind of valuable knowledge about myself and my past. A painful learning tool which will make me even stronger!