Happiness

Well, it appears that my "prayers" have been answered. Or maybe I finally connected with a wave of positive, loving energy that is providing back to me what I've always believed deep down in my heart? Or maybe my perceptions and views on life have changed so dramatically that nothing at all has changed but my own attitude? I suppose I could sit here all day and come up with a million "maybes" (I would enjoy it but will spare those reading this). What matters most is the fact that I am so thankful and full of gratitude! I'm sure people can see it oozing out of my pores. Or hopefully this positive light inside me is shining on those who need it most... It is my wish to put a smile on some one's face or in their heart. And when they are near me, they feel a little happier or inspired in life.

I remember several years ago when I was just a young and impressionable women, someone important in my life told me, "It's not possible to be happy all of the time. It's not normal. Why aren't you ever sad?" And like the "people pleaser" that I WAS I totally took in this negativity and made it my own. I believed this distorted opinion and altered who I was (my very being) simply to gain this person's approval. I tried for many years to be someone I wasn't meant to be. And as hard as I tried to please that person, they were never happy or satisfied with who I was.

I'm so relieved that I came to my senses and decided to BE ME! And I'm happy being me! I enjoy living in my delightful little world where there are angels, rainbows and big bright yellow SUNFLOWERS.