I'm really, really at a loss as to what to do. My current situation is causing me great pain and dissatisfaction. I've waited many years to have this kind of person in my life. I've FINALLY found him but circumstances have made it impossible to fully enjoy him and our relationship for two years.



I know myself. When I make a decision and commit to something, I want it and act on it immediately. I guess I just don't understand how other people think. Why wait to make something happen when you know it's going to be a wonderful and fulfilling thing in your LIFE? Maybe they aren't as confident as I in regards to the future? Maybe my priorities and values are simply different? I've always been taught and fortunate to know that love and family come first. I've been blessed to always have both in my life. I also have an understanding as to how fast one's life goes by. I'm still young, vibrant and eager to live my life AND share it with another soul.


I'm tired of being patient. If I hear that word once more time, I think I will SCREAM! I've been patient for two years. It's a normal tendency to want to share your daily life with the person you love, adore and have fun with. It's normal as the relationship progresses, to want to build and develop that bond you share. (A bond that can't be built through the phone.)


So this is my last "plea for help" to god, the universe or whatever to PLEASE help me stick with this.... I don't know how much longer I'm going to hang in there.