Why is it the longer a couple is together, the easier it is for them to take each other for granted? The appreciation for one another tends to dwindle away... Or maybe it still exists but you just ASSUME the other partner knows how you feel. You assume they know how important they are to you or how special their life is to yours.

When you meet for the first time, it is exhilarating! It feels like a new adventure or journey. There is so much to learn about this new person that has come into your life. It is exciting! The positive attributes within each person are celebrated. The negatives are totally overlooked. But as time wears on, the negative annoyances seem to creep in and take center stage. You are then comfortable with this other person and have no problem bringing the noticed irritations into awareness. And so it begins.... The "you did this", "you said that", "you never do this", or "you didn't do that"... And somehow those qualities that you were initially attracted to get pushed aside and in worse cases, forgotten.

I don't want to be one of those couples who nag at each other for their weaknesses, negative faults, etc. No one is perfect nor is any relationship. I want to be one of those couples who realize that we are two different people from two completely different worlds and upbringings yet we found each other and fell in love. And despite those differences, we are willing to accept and appreciate our differences unconditionally.

I know I thank the stars every single day for my spouse. Even though he gets on my last nerve at times, I love his whole entire being... positives AND negatives. I do hope he feels the same about me.

Sooner than Later

I keep thinking "this is it", "soon", "it's almost over" but then I realize I've had these very same thoughts for a couple of years now. It's nothing new. It has become my life.... How long must a person hope, wait, pray, wish, be patient, stay strong and continue living a life in limbo/not knowing? It's soooo exhausting. It's isolating. It's like being on an emotional roller coaster. You think you are getting closer to it actually & finally happening and you start to allow yourself to feel excited and relieved. But then some roadblock or glitch comes up and you don't know anything more or feel any closer to that goal then the day it started. And I do recall the day it started quite vividly. It seems like only yesterday but it was 3 years and 2 months ago! It felt like some force had knocked me upside the head and told me "Wake up! This is the one!!". This person and opportunity is what millions of people in the world are looking for and it's standing right before you waiting to see if you will risk everything, give up everything to take a chance at a lifetime of special. A lifetime of devotion, commitment and loyalty. The very things I had lacked for so long and wished upon a star that would come to me. It all transpired but still to this day, feels like a dangling carrot and I'm on a hamster wheel running as fast as I can on a daily basis trying to reach it, grab it and make it mine... NOW!

Needless to say, I now understand the phrase "all things come with a price"...