Sooner than Later

I keep thinking "this is it", "soon", "it's almost over" but then I realize I've had these very same thoughts for a couple of years now. It's nothing new. It has become my life.... How long must a person hope, wait, pray, wish, be patient, stay strong and continue living a life in limbo/not knowing? It's soooo exhausting. It's isolating. It's like being on an emotional roller coaster. You think you are getting closer to it actually & finally happening and you start to allow yourself to feel excited and relieved. But then some roadblock or glitch comes up and you don't know anything more or feel any closer to that goal then the day it started. And I do recall the day it started quite vividly. It seems like only yesterday but it was 3 years and 2 months ago! It felt like some force had knocked me upside the head and told me "Wake up! This is the one!!". This person and opportunity is what millions of people in the world are looking for and it's standing right before you waiting to see if you will risk everything, give up everything to take a chance at a lifetime of special. A lifetime of devotion, commitment and loyalty. The very things I had lacked for so long and wished upon a star that would come to me. It all transpired but still to this day, feels like a dangling carrot and I'm on a hamster wheel running as fast as I can on a daily basis trying to reach it, grab it and make it mine... NOW!

Needless to say, I now understand the phrase "all things come with a price"...