Mixed Emotions

Sometimes I get so frightened that I'm making a huge mistake. I start questioning my own thoughts and feelings and wonder if it's really my true authentic self speaking. Or is it the emotions from years of anger and resentment built up and held onto? Am I scared of the change? Am I scared of what I'll be giving up? Maybe it's simply a matter of fear of the unknown? It's so hard for me to hurt others. I suppose that's why it's been so easy to forget what I want and my desires. But is it really living a healthy and happy life if I continue on with this lie I've been living? It's apparent I haven't been happy for quite some time. And my needs have totally been ignored. My dreams have been given up. And the sick feeling in my stomach every day should be a pretty good indication as to what I need to do...

Take the leap. Don't be frightened. Let go of the past. Remain strong.