Fresh Start

I had forgotten how wonderful it feels to be happy! I lived for so long being unfulfilled, lonely, confused, unhappy and consumed with anger. I just thought that was how life was. I'm still dumbfounded at how I lived in denial for so long. How could I not see what the source of my unhappiness was? I know I didn't feel alive, special or loved for who I was for many years. I put it all off on myself thinking I was an unlovable or uninteresting person. Never even thinking twice that maybe it wasn't a good match or it could quite possibly be their distorted thinking and view on life. I guess it goes to show you how easily swayed or even brain washed one can become. I've almost made it to the end of the tunnel. It was painful and scary, but I persevered. The short, tumultuous journey was worth it. I've not felt this positive, confident, content and at peace for almost 15 years. "AAAAHHHH!" (Long ssiigghh!!!). :)