Roller Coaster Ride

Well, I've been at the top of the hill and now I'm slowly making my decent towards the deep dark tunnel at the bottom of the hill. All of the memories, happiness, pain and experiences over the last 15 years of my life are flashing before my eyes as this journey into the unknown picks up speed. Reality has set in as to what I'm about to do. What I'm giving up (or quite possibly what I will be gaining). What I'm going to put my family through. It's quite painful. I now understand the meaning of "gut wrenching". But even though I'm apprehensive and scared, I still feel deep within my soul that this is the right decision for ME! I have to remain strong and accept any consequences from my actions. If in the future I find out it was a mistake, then I will deal with it at the time. If in the future I find my peace and happiness, well then the pain and suffering will have been worth it. All I can do is try and pray and hope for the best!